The Song: My Life Journal (Pt.4)

While trying to figure myself out, I stumbled across a video titled “Kissing My Best Friend WLW.” Every TikTok compilation had the same song playing in the background. It felt familiar, like something tugging at a memory I couldn't quite place. And then it hit me.

The first time we met, she had said, “Let’s listen to music together.” She handed me one of her earphones, our shoulders brushing as she pressed play. That song, the one playing in all those videos, was the same one she chose back then. ‘Electric Love’ by Børns.

And just like that, I was there again. Sitting beside her. Sharing a song. Not knowing, not realizing, but maybe, just maybe, feeling something even then.

Did that song mean something? Did she mean something?

Was it just a song she liked, or was it something more? Did she choose it randomly, or did she know, did she feel what I didn’t yet understand?

I keep asking myself, searching for meaning in a memory that’s long gone. But the song remains. The song lingers. And maybe, just maybe, so does everything else.

Whatever.

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Why is it that there's always that one person who manages to make us dislike them more and more every day? I swear, can they just stop being so difficult for once?

It’s so frustrating dealing with this woman in my life. She constantly tries to position herself as some sort of authority figure, but honestly, I don’t need her input. If I could go back, I’d tell myself to avoid being kind to her. Every time I try, she just takes advantage. And seriously, if you can’t properly care for your own children, you shouldn’t be having them in the first place.

I really can't stand this lady. She frustrates me so much. Why do father's sisters always act this way? Honestly, just focus on getting your granddaughter married. Why do you have to pressure me into marriage? She and I are the same age, so why does she need to focus on her studies, but I’m expected to get married? (Typical Indian Joint Family situations)